Struggling

I am so grateful for the amount of weight I have lost. I am grateful that I was able to have the surgery. I have been really happy with how smoothly the diet, exercise & new life has been going for me.

However, this weekend was really hard for me and I have no clue why. I was struggling with my feelings. I know I have a lot to be grateful for, but I just couldn't get out of the funk that I was in. I was so sad on Saturday that all I wanted to do was cry. (I did cry) I was depressed and had no idea why. I hate feeling this way. Thank goodness for my dad & step mom & for being able to spend time with them to help get my mind off things. We all headed down to a neighbors house to help her clean up her front yard. The neighbors big tree split & fell in her front yard & was covering the sidewalk.

I think I got overwhelmed & stressed with all the changes going on. I have been looking for a part time job because I want to get all of medical bills paid off sooner than later. I have applied at a few places but haven't heard back. I really don't want to work on Sundays. I know I was supposed to have the surgery. I know it was an answer to many prayers. I know that the Lord is aware of me & that He will help me find a part time job. I just need to keep the faith & keep doing my part. Sometimes that is the hardest thing to do. Especially when I am not a patient person. I guess the lesson I am learning right now is patience.

I am grateful for all my friends & followers who cheer me on & support me through all he good & bad. I know that everything will work out.